The clouds earlier today (June 25, 2012)
“Clouds may come, but clouds must go, and they all have a silver lining. For behind each cloud you know, the sun, or moon, is shining.”
Life changes. You get it all lined up just the way you like it and then something beyond your control comes along and bumps you off center. How nice it would be if you could get everything just the way you want it and say “okay, now.. stay!” But nothing stays the same. You grow up, make friends, lose friends, go to college, lose track of people, meet new ones and sometimes you ask yourself why. But all I can tell you is that every single experience you go through changed you in some way. Every new person who comes into your life changes you. Every moral dilemma or emotional experience you come up against changes you. It’s your job to decide how.
Happiness, to me, is many things. I am truly happy when I am content with myself. Not my appearance, not my accomplishments, not my acquaintances- just me. I am truly happy when I discover something, or someone, that enthralls, enchants, and enamors me. Music, films, nature, and people do all of these things. I love the feeling of first discovering a band that sings everything I’ve ever wanted to speak. I love reading a book that makes me sincerely hopeful for the hero/heroine, instead of jealous. And I like watching a movie that changes my thought process, and takes me away from a world full of propaganda, lust, and grammatical errors. I like being prideful, but humble. I am happy when I’m in a car full of my closest friends, singing mockingly to the out-dated songs playing on the radio; our hands out the window, our minds focused on that moment alone. I am happy when I’m stuck at home, playing party games with my family, laughing about ourselves. I realize I possess talent. I realize that the daisies make me smile because they’re happy, not because they’re beautiful. I realize I can love with my whole heart without bitterness. I realize that I am significant… and I realize my life is worth it.
At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.
“There’s a point in your life when you know who stays forever, and who’s just around for a while. People change, but so do you. Sometimes for the best, and sometimes for the worst. Bad things happen to everyone, you’re not in it alone. People lie, and some people just don’t care how you feel. Your heart beats, no matter how much pain you’re in. Everything will be okay eventually. There are always people in your life that just make your day, no matter the miles. I know about distance, I’ve been dealing with it all my life, don’t tell me it’s easy, because it’s not. But it’s worth it. I’d rather keep in touch with the people I love, than just drop it and forget about it. You don’t forget the ones you love. It doesn’t work like that. Give it all you’ve got and live your life to the fullest. People would kill to be you, have what you have, someone always has it worse off than you, but that doesn’t mean that your pain doesn’t count.”
I often hear people say that they read to escape reality, but I believe that what they’re really doing is reading to find reason for hope, to find strength. While a bad book leaves readers with a sense of hopelessness and despair, a good novel, through stories of values realized, of wrongs righted, can bring to readers a connection to the wonder of life. A good novel shows how life can and ought to be lived. It not only entertains but energizes and uplifts readers.
We spend the majority of our time searching for what’s wrong in this world, feeling sorry for ourselves, and judging others when we have no room to judge. Everyone in this world has their own story, their own past, their own reasons for why they are the way they are. So maybe we shouldn’t be so quick to judge. Maybe the key to this life isn’t how “popular” we are, how much money we make, or what God we praise, but simply touching the lives of others around us. Making a difference. That’s what life should be about. Accepting people for who they are, going out of our way to help others, and loving with our whole heart. Sometimes all it takes is one nice gesture to turn someone’s world around. To put a smile on their face. To make them feel less alone. That is what we should live for because when you’re gone from this world, you can’t take anything with you. All that’s left of you are the people who’s lives you touched, and the difference you made while you were here on earth. So make this life count, because you don’t get a second chance.
Welcome to life, here’s what it’s like, here’s what it’s always been: a shot in the dark, straight through the heart while you’re in the light with them. And welcome to hurt, welcome to fear. It’s better now that everybody’s here. Welcome to life.
We’re locked in an image, an act. And the sad thing is, people get so used to their image; they grow attached to their masks; they love their chains. They forget all about who they really are. And if you try to remind them, they hate you for it. They feel like you’re trying to steal their most precious possession.
Have you ever thought about life that way? Every second, every minute, of every hour, of every day. The weeks go by and so do the months. Then it’s a new year. You’re getting older as the time goes by. And quite frankly, time goes by fast , if you’ve ever thought real hard about it. Where are you now? What is your life like? You have so many questions. Not so many answers.Do you often look at people around you and wonder what has happened or what is happening in their life? We all stress about many things, care to much about what other people think. Sometimes I really don’t understand anything and I just want to scream. I know there must be people out there who always seem to feel alone. Sometimes you just need to take those baby steps to the next big thing. Learn from mistakes, or learn something new perhaps. Smile, and be happy. Don’t be afraid even when you think you can’t be anything else but that.
I find it really hard to accept that some things in life will never go back to the way it used to be, and all I can do is think about it all the time, wishing I could re-live it. When I close my eyes, I think about all the good times we had.. but it’s all in the past, and I can never get it back. I loved those days, and I miss them so much. It hurts to know that those memories will always stay in my mind no matter what I do.. but I know it’s impossible to go back.
The essence of life is not being perfect, impressing people, or succeeding at everything. The essence of life is simply making mistakes and learning from them, surrounding yourself with people that love you when you’re being yourself, and getting through the failures so that you can continue improving.